It was that day again today. One of my least favorite days. I got probed.
You know the first day they told me I had to go in for one of these Ultrasounds I thought it was going to be like the ones on TV where they do it on top of your stomach. Never did I imagine that when I got there they’d lube up and condom up that white probe and put it up my vagina. But here we are into our third month of Letrozole and now I am for the most part used to it. But I never look forward to it.
Today they were looking for cysts on my ovaries because they saw such big follicles last go round but I did not get pregnant. Well, thankfully, no cysts! I was actually worried. I just don’t want anymore speed bumps on this journey. I even saw a couple of follicles developing on the right side already. Please please please let cycle 15 be our cycle and one of those follicles be the beginning of one of my babies.
After the Ultrasound I met with my Clinical Nurse and she said this is our last round before I will possibly be put on stronger medication and other options will be explored. Not IVF which I am in no rush to get to mind you, but possibly IUI which I was about ready to try anyway. I am fine with not trying it until the end of next month for sure. I really would much rather keep trying with the timed intercourse since that is actually free…but of course a lot more work. But 600 bucks a pop timed intercourse is not, and an IUI is. Either way I am beyond hopeful again. Leaving she reordered my Letrozole so we will be trying again at the same dose. I took my first dose today. I actually had some leftover at home thank goodness because the pharmacy didn’t have it filled and the roads were too icy to go back out later on. I will fetch the rest of it tomorrow.
Mostly my spirits have been okay. The fight I had with my husband put a damper on things but I am hoping we will get back to normal very soon. I hate fighting with my husband and he has a lot of anger demons that I just cannot understand because we had such polar opposite childhoods and I think sometimes our experiences just clash. Hopefully we will be able to find more peace and resolution on his day off and through our counseling session next Wednesday.
But today is a hopeful day, A day where I can imagine that we can get this right and that science and nature may be on our side. I hope I am right. I don’t feel like getting probed again any time soon.