Chasing Baby Mayr

I love Acupuncture. I complain about how expensive it is often but I absolutely love how I feel in those moments when those needles are in. I feel like I drift away into this trance of sleep where I can hear my thoughts and my feelings more clearly. It is hard to describe but I imagine a lot of people feel this way when they get it done.

I have been going once a week now since last August. I was hopeful that this would help with my infertility and while I feel like it may have improved some things, of course I am still not pregnant and that is concerning for me monetarily so I am wondering if I will continue going at the same frequency if we don’t get any results.

I would miss it though. I love being that in tune with my body and my emotions and it is about the best sleep I ever get is when those needles are in. Afterward I usually want to go home and just lay day and take a nice nap. And most days I do.

When they put those needles in one thing I find kind of cool is sometimes one side of my body is more sensitive than the other. People will say acupuncture doesn’t hurt but sometimes a certain part of your body or side in my case most times can be super sensitive and you can feel the pressure big time. Today my left side was super sensitive and I almost wanted to yell out when she was putting the needles into my ears and legs. My stomach though I didn’t feel much. Once the needles were in I drifted away and I remember feeling so relaxed and at peace.

When she came back in she did some work with a laser on my abdomen and on my back that was supposed to help with infertility. I absolutely hate she had to wake me up from my amazing time traveling sleep for this but I dozed off again while she was doing that. Honestly I didn’t even want to leave I just wanted to lay on that bed and sleep all day. Something about acupuncture just puts you in the perfect mindset and space for sleeping. I know one day they left me back there and I was knocked out for an hour. And as I said usually I want to go straight home for a good old fashioned nap.

Today I am proud of myself because I resisted that desire and actually stayed out and got some errands done. Got all my medications for this great fertility journey picked up and I worked out at the earlier class tonight just in case the late class got canceled again. I actually felt mostly good working out today and less gassed. Not much less but I’ll take any improvement I can. Tomorrow is yoga thankfully so I should be worked out but not out of breath.

I am looking forward to a job interview in the morning for working at an elementary school. I hope I get it. I love kids and I think being around them right now might also be really uplifting for my spirits. So wish me the best of luck on that.

Lastly I hope my husband and I can get back to a good place emotionally. We will still try but we have a lot of issues to work on and things that I want addressed with money so we can move on. We deserve better from each other and it has just been such a long grinding road trying to have this baby and keep a healthy marriage. I hope some good news and a break is coming our way soon.