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Two Days Late.

Posted at 7:51 pm by amayr1984, on January 17, 2019

I still have not gotten my period and I do not know why. I do not even feel like I will get it anymore but I am not pregnant.

This rarely happens to me period let alone on medicated cycles so of course I am very frustrated and saddened at the same time. Once you get to the place of accepting that you are going to get your period it is hard to wait for it any longer than you should have to. Doing so means you are pushing out the dates of your next ovulation and everything feels like it is on hold and going to take so much longer.

And hey, this getting pregnant thing has taken long enough.

Magically I am mostly out of the depressive feelings I had during the Two Week Wait which I am grateful for. I took the day off of working out yesterday to clean the bathrooms and organize some things which I am super happy I got done. I even clipped some coupons. I still don’t feel like doing my hair or makeup though but that’s ok. I am going to have a birthday dinner with a friend and then attend yoga and come back home. I am going to continue to focus on my body and positive energy. I am going to try not to be annoyed with my body but instead try to be open to the idea that whatever is happening is what is necessary so that I can get pregnant whenever that time comes.

Most of the time I am this calm and reasonable about trying to get pregnant. This is why I try to blog every day of the cycle so that they shifts in mood can be apparent. Because I’m not always an anxious wreck. Normally my period being late does also make me an emotionally snappy person and I did snap at my husband last night because of his horrendously annoying habit of having a tablet on when he is trying to go to sleep. The flashing lights of the scene changes aggravate me to no end. Last night I just couldn’t fall asleep and I jumped up and yelled “I don’t know how you can stand to sleep with that mess on!” before going to the guest room and passing out. Perhaps that is something we need to discuss more in depth in the future.

Anyway…no period but I am fine. Today.

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Cycle Day 28: Good Bye Failed Cycle. Hello New Race

Posted at 2:11 am by amayr1984, on January 16, 2019

And now the acceptance stage rolls around the day before my period right on time.

I accept I am not pregnant. I have talked to a couple friends on the phone. I have purchased iron to add to my daily supplement and medications for Fertility arsenal. I made it to boot camp today again and I checked off most of the goals that I had for myself though Lord knows I have not tackled the upstairs and cleaned it like I keep lying and saying I will. (I will).

I know that all there is to do is to try again. Most of the time I am very sane and realistic about this journey. I just started blogging in the bad spot but I am sure I will be back in that bad spot pretty soon. That’s what the picture is for. When I saw it in a Trying to Conceive group I was like “O MY GOD! That’s it!”

That is the rollercoaster ride I am on when I am in that last week of the two week wait. Up and down. Down and up. Hopeful then pessimistic. And it’s not something I really see changing any time soon. Maybe if this takes a whole lot longer it will change or become a straight line. I would love for it to change but the past 14 months have shown me that change will not come easily.

So as my cycle ends I consider my goals for next cycle:

Workout 5 days a week

Continue to eat well. Incorporate more fruit.

Find more time to clean and organize as this is therapeutic for me and I want to get my house a certain way before I head back to work.

Talk to your friends more. Call them. FaceTime them. Go see them.

Ask husband to drink more water closer to Trying to Conceive time

Try Mucinex because I didn’t seem to have a lot of cervical mucus

We’ll see about that Diva Cup thing again. I found it weird and after one round of it not working I wouldn’t miss giving it up.

Most importantly though: Be Kind to Yourself

This is the lesson I will have the hardest time with as beating myself up is a reflex that I need to eliminate from my psyche period. It’s not your fault you are not getting pregnant. You are trying your best. One day it will work out.

You are going to be an amazing mother one day. And I know you won’t be comforted in the last week of the two week wait next month reading this…but just know at the end of the rollercoaster there is peace.

There is still hope.

Get on your mark. Ready. Set. Go.

Baby Mayr, I’m coming for you.

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